Give Me Jesus!

Have you ever had that moment where you need to make a decision on what to believe?

 God’s truth or Satan’s lies?

I got a phone call today.  I was hopeful when I saw the name on my phone.  Maybe today will be different.  Maybe it won’t be the same.  I picked it up, listening to the person on the other end.   Nope all I heard was hurt, sadness, lies, blame, and sheer disappointment coming from the other end.  My heart ached.   

Why does it have to be this way Lord?  I didn’t ask for this.  This is such a thorn in my flesh.  What did I do to deserve this?

Have you ever felt that way about something in your life?

One day everything is moving along smoothly.  Then in a blink of an eye it can go right back to the lies that Satan fills you with...... shame, heartache, disappointment, fear. 

When will it break I ask God?  When will you change this and remove this thorn.  Some days it is just too much to bear.  

Take it away.

 Paul says in

2 Corinthians 12:7-10

 Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me.  Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me.  But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”  Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.  That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Then He slows my thinking, all those anxious thoughts.  “Nicole, rest in me.”  “Stop trying to control the outcome.”  “Surrender to me and just let go.”   “It’s OK to be weak, let me make you strong!” 

It can be so hard to do this at times.  There is this battle in me, between Gods word and what Satan wants me to believe. 

What I am finding is God wants me to realize that rather than asking Him to remove the thorn.  I need to ask Him how I can use this thorn in my life for His purpose.  Lord it isn’t something I would have chosen, but You can make good of this!

Why do I fall back into my old way of thinking?  Why as soon as something rears its head back in I can go back to believing the lies.

Jesus says^:

 

John 16:33

 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

And there lies the beauty in it all.  Jesus has overcome the world.  

 Thank you Jesus!!

He overcame all my fears, failures, heartaches, and lies. 

 He calls me to surrender, to completely lose myself and just let go.

 Love it!!  

 I imagine letting go and falling backwards and knowing Jesus is ALWAYS going to catch me. 

 That is how I want to live.   

Totally undone and surrendered to my creator JESUS CHRIST.